Thursday, June 12, 2014

Stick me

The white, fiercely clean walls and the smell of antiseptic are only in my imagination.

I took a few steps into the dark, and they say that when you do that, it's faith.
Did they ever tell you that faith was scary? Because I'm terrified.

They say faith is the opposite of fear. I beg to differ.
Faith is something you choose despite your fear.
And let me tell you, I'm terrified.

The first and last time I had my blood drawn, I passed out.
And started jerking, seizing up.
It surprised me, but funnily enough, I wasn't scared.
Everyone else was terrified.

I'm going to have my blood drawn again today.
For no other reason but practice.
Someone gets to practice poking a needle in me, only this time, there are precautions.
I'll be laying down, and I won't look at the needle as it goes in.
I should be fine. I'm not really scared.

It's me poking someone else.
That's a little nerve-wracking.
I know it hurts and pinches.
I don't want to pain someone else. That scares me.

I guess I've got to have  a little faith.
Ya, I'll stick a sharp, foreign object in their blood,
But they're not scared.

A little confidence in myself won't go amiss.
Faith despite fear, right?

so Stick Me.